Was it this way..........

Have you ever wondered seeing or observing a thing that is familiar to you and say 'has this been this way all the time?'
This happens to me, of course not very often,I could say almost rarely. But when it does, it really fills me with awe! Even though some things have been the way they are since you can remember, suddenly they appear to you in a total different way. This happens with real tangible objects and abstract things too. There is this almar that my mom uses. Its been in our house ever since I can remember. Given that fact I have seen it all the time. And suddenly one day I look at the handle of its door and I was 'was it this way all the time?' I started to wonder and look at it as if it were something mysterious from another world. The feeling though short lived was very enjoyable.

Coming to the other side of this thing, it sometimes happens with my life! :P
I mean, like when I first started to live away from my home in a hostel for my undergrad, even after it has had been a sem since I went there...suddenly when I woke up from my sleep one day, I had this feeling come to me...'Oh! I am staying in a hostel now, far away from home! Its only in my holidays that I get to be with my family!' The whole thing seemed so strange to me. I mean to the fact that my parents were someone whom I could see only in my holidays, or rather the fact that I am growing apart from them...I don't mean that in a bad way.....I could rather say that the fact that I was growing up (to become a total individual?) seemed so.......what? surreal I can say I guess!
This feeling as much as filled with awe, it had a tiny bit of melancholy to it too! Cause even if its common and natural, it still was a fact that I was growing apart from my family. Its an ambivalent feeling. Sometimes it makes me sad how a family grows apart. I mean like when I think of my father and his brother, how they must have been together when they were young like me and my bro now, and how they are now each with their own families, it makes me sad. I don't mean to say that the relations between my father and his brother are not good, but my point is how their lives have pretty much grown apart. The thought that this might happen to me and my bro makes me sad!

Anyways, now that there has been another major change in my life, I mean coming to the US for my masters, I suddenly had this feeling again. This time even with a tad more sadness cause it would be at least an year before I see my parents and bro. Of course even in India there was this one time when I didn't see them for an year, but the distance somehow adds the extra sadness.
Like I said this feeling is usually short lived. But it does makes me think of things like these!

Its like even though I know and realize change is inevitable, there is somepart of me that doesn't want to change!
I guess there is this somepart in everyone!