Thursday, May 31, 2007

My first post

Even though this is my first posting it's not my first attempt at blogging. Had another blog with just two postings in a period which was more than one year. I rarely blog and so it rusted away. The actual thing is I forgot the login name and password of my previous blog and was too lazy to get it back. I wouldn't have created this one either, had it not been for blogger letting you create a new blog with your good old google account!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Coming to the question of what made me feel like writing this is post is a pic of a friend of mine on orkut. This person belongs to the special class of friends,friends whom I rarely talk to. May be I could say that they are just acquaintances. I study in a college in which there are 240 students per engineering batch.Owing to the big size of our batch I have many friends who belong to this special class. In the start, when I first came to the college I used to talk with almost every batch mate I came across, trying to make friends. Eventually I made friends here and have a circle that I feel I belong to. But there are some persons with whom I have some friendship and the friendship didn't grow coz of various reasons.These are my special friends. When I bump into these friends I just dont know what to do. Sometimes we exchange pleasantries, sometimes we just do an acknowledgment nod. Sometimes I say a 'hi' or 'hello' with no reciprocation. Sometimes we just pass by as if we are strangers looking at all other directions but at each other. Sometimes I just pretend to not notice them wondering if the other person would acknowledge my 'hi' or 'hello'. Sometimes I do this coz of my ego which tells me 'let him/her greet you first, why is it always have to be who says a hi first'. Sometimes I receive a pleasantry that I don't expect. The bad thing is that i have quite a number of these special friends. Most of them are people whom I would love to be friends with. I hate the fact that I don't have the boldness to talk to them and revive our friendship.I used to be reserved before coming to this college. I have never been in a hostel before. In the three years of my college life I have learnt a lot about dealing with people but still there are things like these which I don't know how to deal with.I just don't know what to do and I have to keep facing these awkward situations. I just wish that I no longer have to face these awkward situations. May be I am worrying too much, as most of my friends say!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

chalo, bored you enough and anywayz have to sleep!!!!!!!!!!

P.S: So my special friends, when I bump into you and don't say anything thing or pretend to not notice you please understand that either its my shyness or me waiting for you to greet me first!!!!!!!!!!!! :)